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Psychology / Rejection #12
« on: September 10, 2022, 03:36:47 PM »Rejection #12
A very simple one and maybe boring but it counts. There was that girl interested in martial arts who I met in a forum related to this matter. Her boyfriend was a karate trainer and he was pretty good; better than me probably; a real pro. But he wasn't very educated and cultured. She said she likes my romantic poems and my science based thoughts. Maybe she also preferred my face? I am not sure. So we started to exchange warm and emotional e-mails. I wasn't against it because I thought that "it's just e-mails", I even don't touch her so it's not something like she is cheating her karate boyfriend. Also, I had that hope that someday she may officially break with that karate man and come to my city, become my girlfriend. Of course, I didn't press her to do so, I am totally for this: she to make her free and independent choice. I even was concerned about her well-being and told her several times that it's not a good idea to exchange so warm and emotional e-mails because if her karate boy-friend find out she will be in trouble. I didn't worry about me so much because I was ready to spare with him for her (if in case there was this ideal situation: "Let's fight and she is choosing the winner!" ) Well, nothing like this happened. The worst happened - he really found out that she is in an "e-mail relationship" with me; she started to hate me, speak some rough and unpleasant words towards me in that martial arts forum (of course most of the people would think that it was just a sort of "virtue singnaling", which, according to a definition, is "The public expression of opinions or sentiments intended to demonstrate one's good character or social conscience or the moral correctness of one's position on a particular issue.") Simply, she started to fool him and the others that it was all my fault, she was too naive to believe me, she loves only him, blah-blah-blah-blah...
Later I lost connection with her and she didn't left something that I can miss (I can't compare her with some others who also rejected me but at least they were unforgettable women) but, for sure, she was a sporty, cute and pretty girl (at that time; no idea what she become now). And that karate man tried to be bitter, attacking, competing against me in that forum and one bigger forum but I was many times more knowledgeable than him and he had to suffer a lot of emotional losses online and he was really embarrassed and many people thought he looks like a looser, not me. Later I heard he died in some traffic accident and because I never hate him (I was his enemy but he wasn't my enemy; I mean he had much stronger negative emotions towards me.) I felt like "Oh, gosh! Pity boy. First his stupid girlfriend, then all his misery online and now dead so young!" And now all I can say is "Rest in peace, man! I don't hate you."